Music Of The Day : Heels Over Head - Boys Like Girls

Depression.

got back progress reports today.
guess what,
i can't even make it to double science.
i can't even make it to BioChem.
let alone PhyChem.
th only combination for me is Combined.
th worst stream of all.

i'm th bottom 20% of th cohort,
i have to stay back from th 28Oct to 31Oct everyday,
8am to 12nn in school,
to study.

ohWOW.

i've disappointed daddy&mummy,
looking at their faces of disappointment,
i just wanted to end my life right away.
i suddenly find no point, no use in living on with life.
i'm tired of those daily routines,
i'm tired of all th stress, pressure from my results.
all th feelings and thoughts,
it's flooding up my mind.
i can't take it anymore.
there's no other reason besides my loved ones
to prevent me from ending my life.

i'm depressed.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!
i'm sorry i didn't even have th courage to open my mouth
to wish you happy birthday
or sing th birthday song for you.
i'm sorry for disappointing you,
i thank you for all you've done for me.
and I love you.

when i needed you th most,
you ain't there for me.
when i needed a shoulder to lean on,
you're vanished into thin air.
J'ai besoin de toi maintenant pour m'encourager juste vers le haut de.